I look my world.

I look my world but i can't understand it, somethings are very nice and good for me but other things are very badly and confusing, i'm trying to understand it five years ago, my real world is very small and i'm always dreaming with a faraway world, where i can speak with very amazing people, where i can to have good friends, where i can to think about my future without scare to it, that faraway world where i can be i, i look my world and i feel sad, many times i feel disappointed, i ask myself "why?" if i was born here why i want not be here, WHY?! i look my world and my family isn't the problem, my friends isn't the problem... and i think maybe i'm not good, i can't be well thinking it isn't the world that i want... i look my true world and always that i do it i'm looking for a world... another world.